Almost there!

Ha ha, found this draft from almost a year ago!
I have now lost 91 pounds. A year ago I was at the point where if I lost 20 lbs you couldn't tell. Now if I lost 20 lbs it would be awesome! I am now at X+37 lbs (X being my former ideal weight) which is 13 pounds away from my goal this time. My goal is to be "not overweight" by the charts with  a BMI of 24.9 of less even  hought I think BMI is BS. I know I'm never going to look at myself and think, "wow I look great, I'm done." I know this about myself. I know there will always be something I'll wonder if it wouldn't improve if I lost just a little more. So my goal is to be under the top of the "healthy weight" range. It seems kind of funny to me since I so often started diets within that range. I remember thinking how BIG that number was and going on a diet any time I hit it. It wasn't so much about how I looked, it was the number. It seems silly now that I let the numbers mean that much to me. It would have been reasonable not to want to go over that number, but it was silly to consider everything over X, which is actually the lowest number on the healthy weight range.

It is a weird feeling to be so close, to not almost always be the fattest person in the room. I'm at a point were you could tell if I gained or lost 10 pounds.